Driving down the street,
Looking at the gray sky,
The Stars have all disappeared.
No one is awake yet.
They are peacefully at rest
And now my heart races.
No one else around.
Even the lights look lonely.
I feel so isolated.
My phone rings.
The only voice I hear,
Won't hear me back.
I am trapped.
Trapped by social standard,
A bond I don't feel.
The streets look sad.
I would almost swear,
They are crying with me.
This my journey:
Trapped in a gray world,
Waiting for the sun to rise.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I want to hold on forever
To the person that you were
And the good times we had together.
It's hard for me right now
To be thankful for what we had.
Those times have been ripped from me
And all I am is sad.
They tell me it's okay.
They tell me that time will heal,
But I don't want to believe
That any of this is real.
I'll keep in my mind forever,
The feeling of who you are.
If I keep you in my heart,
Then you'll never be far.
So I won't say goodbye.
I will hold on forever,
To the person that you are
And the good times we have together.
When I sit and think about
My life, I start to cry.
The pain comes back,
The questions of why.
How was I supposed to know
That my life wasn't the same.
How was I supposed to know
That I wasn't to blame.
I cannot help
Traveling back to then.
I can see myself crying.
I was only ten.
A child that young
Can't understand it all.
That is too much weight
For someone so small.
I was too young
To know that she was wrong.
I was too young
To know that it would hurt this long.
Did they think if I was ignored
It would go away?
Did they think
I would just forget it one day?
Just as a child would,
I believed she was right.
I thought it was my fault,
My legs are tired,
But I keep walking.
Callouses grow
On the bottoms of my feet.
My body aches
With the pangs of time.
My shoulders carry
Years worth of weight.
I hear my bones crack
Under this weight.
I am 21 years old
And I am falling apart.
My mind can't make out
What is right in front of me.
My eyes are blurred,
With the tears I've cried.
The dark circles
Make my eyes look unreal
And my skin is the color
of sourdough bread.
My mouth is moving.
I can feel my lips touch,
But I can't hear
A damn thing I say.
My soul feels asleep
As my body moves around.
An empty shell
That walks and talks like me.
Escape with me
And we can fly far away.
If you don't know happiness,
I can show you the way.
When you get there,
Your bad feelings melt.
You don't remember,
All the bad things you felt.
Pure love runs,
From your heart to the floor.
You can forget
Everything that hurt you before.
Everyone else will judge.
People will begin to talk.
But they're just upset,
By the thin line they walk.
They haven't found bliss.
They can't ever be free.
They see our happiness
And are jealous of you and me.
Rain drops fall from heaven,
As God begins to cry.
Lightning streaks down,
As angels begin to fly.
The thunder echos loudly,
As God screams out in pain.
He attempts to wash it away,
With the falling rain.
The clouds are thick,
To cover God's shame.
He has come to see,
His world is not the same.
The wind picks up,
As God exhales his breath.
He has to get ready,
For those who face death.
Angel in black
Has eyes of blue,
That pierce a person
The whole way through.
The angel gives hope
In such a dark place.
A man once wavered,
Now full of grace.
Flying high,
Floating above them all.
No hesitation;
No hint that he'll fall.
His hands that would shake,
Now steady and true.
He is an inspiration,
To get others through.
Because he was so down,
Did he come so high.
Where others walk,
This angel floats by.
Have you ever stopped
To take a good look at me?
I want you to look in my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Do you see the fire burning
Deep down inside?
Do you see all the secrets
That I try to hide?
Can you see the spark of laughter
I had as a child?
Can you see all the stupid people
That drive me wild?
Do you see my future
And all the places I will go?
Do you see my past
And all the things I know?
Can you see deep down
To all the things I've lost?
Can you see my pain
And what my ignorance has cost?
Do you see the stuff hidden
Deep down below?
Do you see the things
That I don't even know?
Can you see the secrets
That
You crashed, you fell.
Wood splinters scattered around.
You crushed more than yourself,
When you hit the ground.
Smoke rising from below,
From those you had to burn.
Despite their brittle bodies,
They may never learn.
Your eyes turn red with tears
From the rising smoke.
You try to explain,
But all you do is choke.
You try to exhale
But you get a face of dust.
Wash your mouth with lies,
Only if you must.
When you finally break free
From your dusty cloud.
You'll be broken down,
But carry your wagon wheel proud!
Driving down the street,
Looking at the gray sky,
The Stars have all disappeared.
No one is awake yet.
They are peacefully at rest
And now my heart races.
No one else around.
Even the lights look lonely.
I feel so isolated.
My phone rings.
The only voice I hear,
Won't hear me back.
I am trapped.
Trapped by social standard,
A bond I don't feel.
The streets look sad.
I would almost swear,
They are crying with me.
This my journey:
Trapped in a gray world,
Waiting for the sun to rise.
I don't want to say goodbye.
I want to hold on forever
To the person that you were
And the good times we had together.
It's hard for me right now
To be thankful for what we had.
Those times have been ripped from me
And all I am is sad.
They tell me it's okay.
They tell me that time will heal,
But I don't want to believe
That any of this is real.
I'll keep in my mind forever,
The feeling of who you are.
If I keep you in my heart,
Then you'll never be far.
So I won't say goodbye.
I will hold on forever,
To the person that you are
And the good times we have together.
When I sit and think about
My life, I start to cry.
The pain comes back,
The questions of why.
How was I supposed to know
That my life wasn't the same.
How was I supposed to know
That I wasn't to blame.
I cannot help
Traveling back to then.
I can see myself crying.
I was only ten.
A child that young
Can't understand it all.
That is too much weight
For someone so small.
I was too young
To know that she was wrong.
I was too young
To know that it would hurt this long.
Did they think if I was ignored
It would go away?
Did they think
I would just forget it one day?
Just as a child would,
I believed she was right.
I thought it was my fault,
My legs are tired,
But I keep walking.
Callouses grow
On the bottoms of my feet.
My body aches
With the pangs of time.
My shoulders carry
Years worth of weight.
I hear my bones crack
Under this weight.
I am 21 years old
And I am falling apart.
My mind can't make out
What is right in front of me.
My eyes are blurred,
With the tears I've cried.
The dark circles
Make my eyes look unreal
And my skin is the color
of sourdough bread.
My mouth is moving.
I can feel my lips touch,
But I can't hear
A damn thing I say.
My soul feels asleep
As my body moves around.
An empty shell
That walks and talks like me.
Escape with me
And we can fly far away.
If you don't know happiness,
I can show you the way.
When you get there,
Your bad feelings melt.
You don't remember,
All the bad things you felt.
Pure love runs,
From your heart to the floor.
You can forget
Everything that hurt you before.
Everyone else will judge.
People will begin to talk.
But they're just upset,
By the thin line they walk.
They haven't found bliss.
They can't ever be free.
They see our happiness
And are jealous of you and me.
Rain drops fall from heaven,
As God begins to cry.
Lightning streaks down,
As angels begin to fly.
The thunder echos loudly,
As God screams out in pain.
He attempts to wash it away,
With the falling rain.
The clouds are thick,
To cover God's shame.
He has come to see,
His world is not the same.
The wind picks up,
As God exhales his breath.
He has to get ready,
For those who face death.
Angel in black
Has eyes of blue,
That pierce a person
The whole way through.
The angel gives hope
In such a dark place.
A man once wavered,
Now full of grace.
Flying high,
Floating above them all.
No hesitation;
No hint that he'll fall.
His hands that would shake,
Now steady and true.
He is an inspiration,
To get others through.
Because he was so down,
Did he come so high.
Where others walk,
This angel floats by.
Have you ever stopped
To take a good look at me?
I want you to look in my eyes,
And tell me what you see.
Do you see the fire burning
Deep down inside?
Do you see all the secrets
That I try to hide?
Can you see the spark of laughter
I had as a child?
Can you see all the stupid people
That drive me wild?
Do you see my future
And all the places I will go?
Do you see my past
And all the things I know?
Can you see deep down
To all the things I've lost?
Can you see my pain
And what my ignorance has cost?
Do you see the stuff hidden
Deep down below?
Do you see the things
That I don't even know?
Can you see the secrets
That
You crashed, you fell.
Wood splinters scattered around.
You crushed more than yourself,
When you hit the ground.
Smoke rising from below,
From those you had to burn.
Despite their brittle bodies,
They may never learn.
Your eyes turn red with tears
From the rising smoke.
You try to explain,
But all you do is choke.
You try to exhale
But you get a face of dust.
Wash your mouth with lies,
Only if you must.
When you finally break free
From your dusty cloud.
You'll be broken down,
But carry your wagon wheel proud!